Saturday, March 29, 2008 || 10:46 AM
On 27 march,just 1 day after my birthday,i had a big cry.cause of SOMETHING.SOMETHING that bother me for the whole day after that.It was the last 2nd period of the day,we were walking to the art room for art.Then saw ms pey,i am tying my tie cause it's out of shape.Then she help me unfold my skirt.Told me SOMETHING.ya SOMETHING.Then i started tearing.In front of her.She continued saying,maybe i think what she say is actually good for me.I dunno why i started tearing,maybe cause i was like some sort of TOUCHED or maybe i dun even know what happen to me.Then 2D walked past,merlion and mian bao chao ren was like calling me then i ignored them just ran up to catch up with my friends to the art room while tearing.Then some sort of people thought that i cried so terribly because ms pey scolded me for folding skirt.Firstly,ms pey didn't scold me,she just talk to me.nicely.Secondly,i will not cried because i got caught folding skirt.just that i won't fold le lor.On the way to art room,li xuan asked why i cry,i didn't tell her.not because i dun trust her.Is just that i dun wanna mention that SOMETHING.for the whole of art lesson,i was tearing and tearing and tearing while pondering over SOMETHING.people started asking me what happened.why i cry.i didn't say.none of them know.vanessa was not in school that day.she was sick.so so she was not there for me..then sarah was like felicia,caught skirt only ma,i everytime also like that,no need cry until like that de.Then amanda also say ya lor caught skirt only,nvm de la.Then i was like I SAID I CRY NOT BECAUSE I GOT CAUGHT BY SKIRT.I ACTUALLY SHOUTED.then they were both shocked.i was just very fed up la.SORRY TO SARAH AND AMANDA LOW LA.SORRY. I WAS JUST TROUBLED.then we went back to0 class as school ended le.i cooled down and stopped crying le.i just walked back to the class fast with li xuan to avoid stares as my eyes were red and swollen.when i went back to class,knowing that later got dance.Ivy and jasleen came.See my eyes red red asked i just now cry is it?i didn't reply her.too tired to.cried too much.then they asked zong sheng wee kian they all.they were like i also dunno lei.just now at art lesson like that le.then i sit down on my chair with the books on my lap thinking which to bring home.then i packed,i think of what ms pey said then i stared cryi8ng.really crying hard.ivy lend me her shoulder.THANKS IVY!I LOVE YOU!I KNEW THAT YOU WILL BE THERE FOR ME.i lean on her shoulder and cried for like 5 minutes.her shirt were wet.she didn't ask me what happened.she let me cooled down first.during the dance rehearsal then she ask me then i told her i started crying.during rehearsal i tried to smile.people know that there is something wrong with me when i didn't smiled.if i was alright,i would have laughed like a crazy girl.
I know.I know.but stop presursizing me.i have heard enough of it.is not that i want it to be like that rite?do you know that people changed unknowingly?precisely.i am stressed enough over this matter.friends said ms pey also say.i know i know.i am trying.can't you see.i am really trying.to be the old me.it's stressful ok?you didn't go through it so you dunno. Dun be surprised when you see me like crying or what these few days or the future.cause you won't know what i am doing.I AM TRYING.
TO MS PEY:i know.i am trying.some people say the same thing as you and i am trying.
TO PEOPLE:thanks for being so concerned about me but pls dun go around like finding ms pey asking what have she told me.
I AM TRYING.Labels: love you
