relax,it's just my feelings
Saturday, March 15, 2008 || 3:42 PM
*'You' doesn't only refers to 1 personTo those who wanted to ask me"are you ok?".You can forget about asking.This is just how i feel.I am not going to commit suicide just because of these.Thanks anyway.
Do you know?Know that i am starting to feel OUT when i am with you?You talk things that i dunno.When i wanted to ask the you will say ok nvm.And you know that i am slow,maybe even retarded to you.when i dun get what you are talking about,i asked lots of things,you then said haiz,nvm.you are slow.maybe you are just getting pissed.it's the same when comes to BBALL.you know,i dun always get to 'touch' the ball.when you see that i am getting more and more boredcause i never get the ball,you will past the ball to me.that's good la.but i am expected to past the ball back to you again.so it's just an extra pass to me.you pass me the ball just for the sake for me to 'touch' it.maybe you didn't realise it.but it's true.it happened more than the numbers of your fingers,if you didn't realise.when i walked with you,i am always standing behind looking at you murmuring to each other.ya.the feeling is bad if you dunno.cause you didn't experience it before yourself.this is just how i feel la.hope that it won't affect our friendship.i am just saying what i feel.sometimes when i am with you.,the feeling is just teerible.i can be very high when i am with you,at the same time feeling low.you talk the same tune,same things.i just feel OUT huh.feel like a...a 'substitube'.there is once when we just came out of school's side gate,you were talking to each other and i am standing quietly behind following.i take bus at thediff bus-stop from you so i have to walk the other way.when i wanted to say goodbye,you were just so engrossed in your conversation.so i just kept quiet and walk my way.you continue talking,dun even know that i was gone.i dunno when then you realised that i was gone huh?perhaps only when you reached the traffic lights then you noticed.let me emphaise again.i hope this won't affect our friendship cause it's just how i feel.
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