Saturday, December 5, 2009 || 7:40 PM
Hmmm.
Yesterday just came back from OBS, Pulau Ubin.
Cried a lot.
Sad.
I miss them.
A lot.
Really a lot.
We've been through a lot of stuffs.
Really hope that time would stop at that moment when we were all at the quarry.
On this side, it's Singapore, the place where you will be going back tomorrow.
On this side, it's Pulau Ubin, the place where we will miss and will not come back anymore.
Day 1:
Know our group.
Group 22, Shackleton.
Didn't even know how to pronounce it correctly.
Know our instructor, Hyzue.
He's handsome okay.
Both a swimmer and a sprinter.
Got more than a six pack,
Nice smile.
Went to our equipment store.
Packed.
Divided food.
Had our own Happy Meal.
Went up the 101 stairs and learned to pitch our own tents.
My sleeping mates : Jennifer, Zhi hui and Farren.
Learned how to cook using solid fuels.
Screamed upon seeing insects.
ALL SORTS of insects.
Ate.
NOT full at all.
Bathed.
Hyzue brought us to the jetty, the floating platform and write our journal.
Slept in our tents.
-wanted to go home.really really miss home. :(
Day 2:
Woke up.
Unpitched tents.
Super lots of stars and it's super bright.
The one we see here can't be compared to the one there.
Really really nice.
It was cold.
Prepared.
Did abseiling.
On a real tall cliff.
Fun and enjoyable.
Prepared our bags.
Went to the jetty.
Put our bags.
Went to wear life vest.
Went down the sea.
To my waist.
stand in a circle.
Besides Hyzue.
Greeted the ocean in 4 different languages and dipped our heads inside the sea 4 times.
Fun.
Went to the plank.
Hyzue did jetty jump.
Kai bin was the first.
Then Jennifer, then Wayne, then me.
Scared but we all did it.
Then we all swam from almost in the middle of the sea to the shore.
Had kayaking practice.
Finally grouped and set off together with group Marco Polo.
3 in a kayak.
But mine only got me and Jennifer.
Kayaked all the way to camp 1.
Super tiring.
But it was only 800m.
They told us about our next day sea expedition.
Was 12km.
Had 4 navigators.
Pitched tents.
Bathed.
Played games.
Doo-doo dance.
Ate dinner.
Full.
Write journals.
Slept.
-miss home. in my heart.
Day 3:
Woke up early.
Unpitched tents.
Went to change.
Prepared for our journey.
My kayak : front-Jen middle-me back-Wayne
Had super a lot of fun and laughter.
Especially Wayne.
Reached our destination.
Raining heavily.
Really heavy.
We all just stand in the rain.
We are not allowed to bathed today.
Hyzue said the rain helped us as it gave us a chance to 'bathe', in the rain.
Cold.
Super.
Walked in the rain to the toilet.
Then went back to wait for the rain to stop so that we could pitch our tents.
Rain stopped.
Asked Hyzue if we could swim in the sea.
He said yes but with life vests.
Most of us jumped down and went swimming in the wide sea.
Fun.
Got up from the sea.
Pitched tents.
Dinner.
No pathlights at all.
Hyzue brought us to a ulu ulu shelter.
Only our group.
wanted us to walked one by one by the path and think about reflection.
After each and everyone walked.
We all lie down on each other's stomach.
In this manner : /\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\
Listened to sad story by Hyzue.
Then played this Haha game.
The first person, Gerald said ha.
Then second person said haha.
Then third person said hahaha.
Then followed on.
16 person together.
I am the 13th one.
Laughed a lot.
Hyzue brought us out all the way to the Pulau Ubin main jetty.
Wrote journal again.
Stared at the moon.
Enjoyed the sea breeze.
Went back to tents.
Slept.
-starting to realise that time is passing fast.staring at the moon praying and hoping that time would pass much slower.
Day 4:
Woke up.
Unpitched tents.
Clean up.
Prepared our bag for land expedition.
10++km.
Walked.
First to Chek Jawa.
I was carrying the heavier tent bag.
Around 15-16kg.
Imagine our shoulders aching.
Holded on the Hyzue's bag.
His bag is heavier than ours.
Plus my weight.
But did walked myself too.
Talked to him a lot on the way.
His past,now and stuffs.
About 45 mins away from the base camp which is our destination,
He brought us to his favourite spot.
Only our group.
Spent time there.
5minutes of silence.
Started to cry.
With Putri and Jen.
Some others cried too.
Shouted.
Got echo.
Hyzue shouted too.
Then group hug.
Everyone realised something and he didn't want to admit but we all know it.
(: + :'(
Continued with our journey.
Carry on holding to his bag, really tight.
Didn't want to let go.
Talked.
Reached destination,
Packed, bathed, cooked.
Ate, full.
Pitched tents.
Went to jetty.
Write journal.
Ate his secret recipe - apple crumble and hot chocolate with mashmellow.
I believed only our group had this. (:
I lie down under 'on' the sea and under the stars.
Listening attentively to my group's laughter.
Then started to feel headache.
Didn't voiced out cause i wanted to enjoy every moment left.
Looked at the moon.
Prayed the time could just freeze at that moment.
And i rather gave up my KFC and stay.
Went back to tents.
Slept.
-I quickly grabbed the last chance cause i knew that after today, i can never hold on the his bag anymore.
Day 5:
Dread to wake up.
Unpitched.
Packed.
Did PT.
People ran 1 round,we ran 5 laps + sprinted one time.
Cleared and stock checked.
Then gathered again.
Hyzue brought us behind the rock climbing into the jungle.
Saw 2 covered wells.
Guessed something and said out.
And i was right.
Hyzue said,throughout these days you all had experience everything except for one thing which is darkness.
We had to walked from one well to another .
ALONE.
Only our group.
I asked why only us?
He said cause i am your instructor.
We smiled (:
Cause we love that answer.
But no torchlight allow.
No specs.
Cause you couldn't even see your own hand inside.
Had to either squat or crawl.
And FEEL your way out.
One by one we take turns.
Then i started to cry even before i went in.
Fear.
Cause it's really dark inside.
You don't even know if you are opening or closing your eyes.
Big black ants inside too.
My turn.
Stand up and said my commitment.
Went down.
Cried really really hard inside and stop halfway.
But continue.
Came out with tears covering my face.
Hugged groupmates.
Had a wristband from Hyzue.
Each Shackleton member has one.
Only we have it. (:
Mine is yellow (:
Went back to store.
Equipment ckeck.
Washed and clean our tents.
Everything is there.
Nothing is lost.
Gathered at the multi-purpose hall.
Slept a while.
Woke up.
Sit in circle.
Listening to Hyzue talk.
Cried again.
Harder.
Jen and Putri cried too.
And some others.
Took cert. and went off.
Rained while waiting for our boat back.
Emo whole time.
Sad to the max max max.
Left for the boat.
Dispatched school by school ):
Not watch by watch ):
Hugged and left.
Glad that Hyzue is the one accompanying this boat to Punggol.
Bought shirts.
Took pictures with him.
Left.
-I miss you people :'(
Each time i think back i cried.
Till now.
Yesterday i woke up from a nap, then felt really lost.
Not knowing what to do.
The feeling is back again.
The feeling of fear i had 4 years ago.
Which made me cry helplessly.
'OBS is a dream and it's time to wake up from this dream. After tomorrow when you leave, there will be no more instructor Hyzue.'
